It's Complicated

Assalamualaikum and hello there :)

Ohh well, i have finished my 2nd-year degree as it was totally hard and i had a very bad semester i guess :'). Well, nak tak nak kena lah jugak hadap, which i chose this path. Do not blame others for every decisions you have made earlier. It's all about you as it is your life, not others. 

People come and go. Only a few who stay. Those who stay, you should appreciate them and keep them close with you. In addition, you also have to keep those who give you positive vibes and try to avoid those with negative vibes. 

Unfortunately, for a girl (or should i call myself a woman) like me, i choose to stay with people who i have been surrounded. Yaaahhh, it is not easy to adapt with thousand kinds of people especially those who love to criticize you, complain every actions you did, begging for your 24/7 attentions, and those who want you to understand them but they haven't done the same things to you. 

It is easy for people to ask you to leave those who are giving you headache. They're not in your shoes tho. People keep talking and won't stop. Believe me. I've been experiencing those kind of things for the whole semester. 

The closer you are with someone, the harder you have to stand and you will be expose to those negativity of that person. Well, we can't expect someone perfect to be our friends, so we have to accept others flaws, and soon, they will understand you well. 

I've been going through a very toughest semester last time. It is quite tiring and it really makes me want to change my attitude. You know how tiring is it to persuade those who never try to understand every action you've taken? It's annoying and i hate it so much. But, no matter how much i dislike it, i have to try to adapt with it, as they are my friends. They are the one who have been helping me fill up my degree journey. I believe that without them, my life is more tough than it used to be and i was totally out of control.

With that, i am totally thanking to Allah for giving me this journey, a journey with lots of laughter, tears, lessons and moral value.

I am not a girl with no feelings, as i can be as moody as i am if people is sulking with me, i am not a girl who enjoys laughing for the whole time as there is time where i hope that i am stronger, i am not a girl who can stand with all people perceptions. I am just a normal girl who hoping for family, friends and strangers to always teach me how to be tough, face the reality with a big-kind heart. 

Thank you :)

Truly,

Asshra.