I May Had Failed

Assalamualaikum

it's easy to give some advice to ur friends or junior once they're losing their hope. but, how about yourself ? i'm facing this kind of prob since the TRIAL is just around the corner. it's pathetic me who acted like i've never being like others who is constantly reading the books without any babbling stuffs.

i hate reading books. but i love reading novel. idk why, but this is the real me. i feel totally super dupper sympathy towards myself. but nothing can help me right now. i tried so many ways to keep on reading the facts. i wish that i can be like Syasya Alina or kak Ilham Alia or maybe kak Ainaa Najihah. 

i want to be like them but i'm not good as them. 

25 days left.

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it's Ramadhan. i love it b'cos i can challenge myself to be better. but, idk why, i feel like im not getting any better. i've try so hard to struggle. i slept around 1 o'clock in the morning. then, wake up on 5 o'clock in the morning. unfortunately, im sleepy during the 'pnp'. 

what's happening to me ? im getting worst in the class. what am i going to do ? i need to cover many things. huh.

i miss my diary. my lucky. i miss the spiritual syahidah during PMR. i want her back. please return her back to me. im begging you. 

okay then, before i end this entry, i would love to say to all my friends,

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. 

i hope you've this feelings toward me too.

and the most importantly, to my parents.

I LOVE BOTH OF YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

it's easy for me to love someone. but, how about others ? idk. 

that's all for today.

Assalamualaikum.

asshra